| Thursday, January 7th, 2010 |
ana_mia
[ 05pink_pig ]
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8:32p |
I know someones already mentioned this but I was wondering if anyone has been watching hannahs story in hollyoaks or watched it in 2007. What do you guys think of it, do you feel it's an accurate representation of your ed's as it reminds me a lot of me :( |
ana_mia
[ miss_thinbones ]
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3:32p |
hey everyone...
i have a question.. and it could get personal, so please dont be offended by me asking, but how was everyone's ED brought about? was it social (you felt like you needed to be thin to fit in, because you're friends were) was it environmental (did something happen to you, like a rape, or family problems?) or was it biological? (it runs in your family) just curious:) |
ana_mia
[ manwithapurse ]
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12:19p |
what are your favorite and most effective exercise routines? i dont know if my body will just get used to long walks and stop burning the cals i eat a day.i was thinking about buying one of billy's bootcamp dvds hah or something like that. i dread going to the gym because all i see are skinnier girls and i feel like theyre all staring at me thinking im pathetic, i fucking i hate it :(. |
ana_mia
[ dreamer1927 ]
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12:18p |
today
breakfast 2 egg whites on bread-95 calories(spilled a lil yolk in when i was separating so i added some calories) lunch v8 juice 100 calories tonight i work so i wont have time to really binge for my work snack imma have half a turkey sandwich and grapes(1 cup) 177 the grapes are 62 calories but i heard grapes are negative calories im not sure if that true tho so by the time i leave work i will have had 372 calories my boyfriend is cooking tonight and i went to calorie king and it said his meal wil be 440 calories if i have 1/3 serving size so im hoping to have less than that but my boyfriend is the one serves the meal up(he says i always take too lil) i think if i play the im full card i can get away with eating less than that. i was thinking about not having the turkey sandwich but the last time i didnt have something at work i got really dizzy and got sent home. so my calories will be 812 which is less than yesterday(880) im hoping to get under 500 calories but its hard when i can purge and my bf is cooking.i am hoping to get him to just make dinner for himself when i work at night that way he doesnt have to wait for me but he isnt thrilled about that and i think it kinda hurt his feelings when i told him i just want to eat at work. |
ana_mia
[ think_thin17 ]
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8:10p |
so my mum just called me "anorexic" and then my dad backed her up by saying "your not fat your skinny" - eeehhh i don't quite know how to feel, do i want to be called anorexic?! no, not really, yes i would like to be thought of as slim but not ill. just had a bit of mixed emotions thats all - weird! xxxx |
ana_mia
[ fatpplscareme ]
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1:51p |
WOW so i went grocery shopping last night and i HEB grocery had a coupon that if you buy bacon you get pilsburry cinnamon rolls free so i got those and my hubby brought my toaster oven to work and the rolls and made them. he ate two. i ate six. purged and now feel like crap. Current Mood:  drained |
ana_mia
[ t0k0 ]
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3:50p |
Just curious
Are any of you ladies like me, where you weigh yourself in the morning AND at night? If so, I was just wondering how much weigh you gain on average through out the day? Whether I just drink water or eat food, I ALWAYS gain 3-4 pounds by the time I'm ready for bed. It's almost always gone the next morning though so that's nice :) also, urgh, I got my 'mr. monthly' today so if I gain any this week I guess I can't take it too personal. |
ana_mia
[ shortthinplease ]
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11:35a |
i am sooo stuffed! just had breakfast with my new best friend<3 we both had gone off the band wagon when we both first moved here to our area and used to weigh the same exact thing! we're also around the same height. only she's a couple inches shorter than me. we both decided to motivate ourselves this year and i lent her to read my book, "skinny bitch" i don't think she has an eating disorder like i do. but she always talks about how skinny i am. i'm still in the hundreds but i'm really focused on being back to 100 for now until i decide to change my hair color and further myself to weigh less. at least now i have someone to help each other out. but she does not know my ed. but yeah, sorry i havn't been on in awhile. like i've said my apartment dosn't have internet right now so i have to go to cafes with wifi! so. also, would anyone here want to do a 6day fast with me starting tomorrow? i want to do a fast from tomorrow to tuesday. would anyone be down to being texting buddies to motivate each other? yeah? Current Mood:  full |
ana_mia
[ daisydeyn ]
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9:12p |
24 hour fast succeeded! Yay me! lol I m happy because i thought i was going to fail again but i did it. I have a little headache So i m thinking about the diet that get me to my lowest weight: Having only dinner and that would be a green apple or a banana,except Sundays where i can have 700-800 cals Also from tomorrow i will start taking diet pills,I will try to avoid laxs. i was thinking about ABC but i want to do it my way and i was never good at following diets.I mean what if i gain or fail then stat all over.... I have to say i couldn;t do it without u i love ya bbs!!!:) |
__postsecret
[ littlebird145 ]
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11:05a |
I said I love you but I lied. I stopped loving you almost four years ago. I don't even love you as a friend anymore. I never thought this days would come but it has. I am sorry but I can't change it. I have forgotten what it is like to love you. Still Happy Birthday. |
ana_mia
[ obscuretruth ]
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12:57p |
you guys are awesome!
sorry if i dont comment enough on ya'lls post but i read them everytime i feel like eating and as a result ive lost 18lbs since thanksgiving(which is pretty good considering it is the holidays=) so i just wanted to let everyone know you will always have my support and thanks for all the support you have given me without even knowing it!!!! Current Mood: chipper |
ana_mia
[ bones_101 ]
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6:41p |
super down:(
well i went to the docs today about my 'sexual asult' he said it wasnt rape in his opinion...cause i was out in a club drunk ( i had 2 drinks?!) and wearing seductive clothing...he said i probably seduced the guy or gave him the impression i wanted to have sex with him..... I broke down in his office :( i said i wasnt a slag ans he just gave me a yer right look! He said he would test me for stds just incase but i dont need to report it as the police would agree with him...... My life is such a mess i cant handle it! i've been stuck in a b/p cycle since the attack but ive lost like 2 pds... cw: 117.5 i was 119 3/4 like 2days ago :) plus side i guess :( i feel blue :( xx |
__postsecret
[ st_ends ]
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10:37a |
My sister and I planned to hang out yesterday. She flaked on me saying that she and her bf have been fighting for two weeks and she was hanging out with her friend. I'm sick of her flaking for everything. She didn't show up for Christmas. Or Thanksgiving. She didn't get ready on time to take me to see Conan. She missed Reese's FIRST birthday and was 3 hrs late for Carlie's. All because she and her boyfriend get into fights. She's just like mom. |
ana_mia
[ 05pink_pig ]
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6:06p |
I have been eating only fruits & veggies since new years day but as today was a snow day I didn't have to go to school which was good as I did exercise earlier but now i have binged and I can't take it anymore :( I couldn't purge as my mum just happened to be cleaning the bathroom. I'm so angry I look like I'm about inemontgs pregnant and am in agony D: why am I such a failure? I've eaten so much I can't even sit up *sobs* I can't take any more of this :( |
ana_mia
[ greenxteaxlove ]
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12:12p |
Broke my record of 13 days without purging last night :( I broke down and purged multiple times in the span of a few hours. I'm so upset. But now I have the chance to beat my record. I can do it. xox, Alice Current Music: "Where is My Mind?" - The Pixies |
ana_mia
[ alrealtorjs ]
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10:18a |
Ughh what to do??
So the past few days ive been cutting my calories down drastically from what they used to be, Im not nearly as low as what most of you are at, but i was used to binging (and not purging) for the past several weeks only over 2500 calories a night every single night. Bad nights put me over 4000 calories a night. Needless to say all those 4000 calorie a night binges made me gain a lot of weight. The past few nights i have cut down to about 1300-1400 a day, which is a healthy amount of calories, but has left me starving after what im used to getting in. And i feel so weak that i cant exercise. I used to be able to exercise for hours a day when i was over 2000 calories a day, now i just about die trying to get in 30 minutes. I'm not losing any weight because i dont have the energy to move around, its like my metabolism has stopped. I'm so frusterated. I also can't sleep at night because im hungry, and i do eat before i go to bed, i have steamed veggies and an apple and if i wake up later hungry again i'll do the same again. But it doesn't satisfy me because my body is used to having carbs for energy, and lots of them. I am just sooo fatigued, out of it, bloated feeling, and slightly nasueated. I just want my energy back!!! I'm taking b-vitamins, a multi-vitamin, drinking caffiene, green tea, even getting vitamin B and C injections- you name it. How do you guys cut down to half (or even less) of what im eating and find the energy to do hours of exercise a day?? I don't see it possible!! |
ana_mia
[ t0k0 ]
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12:12p |
Diet pills
Just bought diet pills for the first time. Clearance $10, regular $40. These things better not make me retain weight or water :( It says to take 15 minutes before i eat. I just ate, if I take them after will it still supress my appetite? |
ana_mia
[ yieldingheart ]
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7:03a |
Just bought slimquick. hoping it works. |
ana_mia
[ arienetttte ]
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10:10a |
drugs make EDs so much easier. |
ana_mia
[ colourneon ]
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2:51p |
im proud of myself for not purging after my binge! Amen. |
ana_mia
[ lautnersbabe ]
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2:48p |
Hey all :) Can i just say how addictive it is when you lose weight on the Wii Fit and your character shrinks! Amazing! So i had some fruit juice this morning thinking it would be lowcal and it wasn't! 120 cals! Not bothered though cus im on 300 today :) I think that Shutupsiobhan deserves a medal for all the commenting she's been doing lately :). Thank you! Have a good day everyone :) xx Current Mood:  energetic |
| Friday, January 8th, 2010 |
ana_mia
[ 99bulimichabits ]
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2:30a |
Girl, interrupted
I ate way too much for my liking today and I purged twice. I can't do this anymore, the feeling of guilt after b/p is getting to me much more than usual. I'm sick of food. Tomorrow involves vodka so i'm just gonna chug it without any mixers. Or mix with coke zero or something. I watched girl, interrupted today and I really liked it, especially Brittany murphy's role. Anyways i'm gonna starve off the food I had today. I always starve the rest of what I can't throw up but I only realised that starvation was a form of purging today. Really weird. Xox |
| Thursday, January 7th, 2010 |
ana_mia
[ m1ss_m1sery ]
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3:38p |
Hey everybody:) I've had such a good day:) I've eaten half a jungle oats bar and had 4 cups of green tea:) going to have more just now... I been with one of my best friends who is pretty skinny. I always make sure i eat half of What my friends eat. Then i feel superior to them:) it's bitchy But I'm extremely competitive with them. I don't wanna let ana make me a bitch... Must be careful of that. Hope you all having a good day:) Current Mood:  accomplished |
ana_mia
[ colourneon ]
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1:09p |
FUCK FUCK FUCK. Im suppost to be on ABC 200. Fuckupp. Right get this. Two sandwiches on salad one chocolate spread 400 or more! Bowl of sheddies with soya milk 200 sweets 200 on top of my 150 earlier. FUCK HOW DOES MY STOMACH HOLD ALL OF THAT! Im so angry at myslelf! Grrrrrr fuck Im staying at my girl friends later. Fuck. |
ana_mia
[ xoxocsr ]
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6:49a |
i love when im too small for my clothes:) but nothing fits me hah... |
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